My Love Affair With Jesus

               

Stay in the Word, the Word will shield me from sin. Let the Word fill up the emptiness.

 I was struggling with an emotional wound when I wrote those words. I still remember a question that kept bouncing around inside my head, "When did I get out of God's will and into Sallee's will?" The honest answer to that question is painful to admit.

Afraid of Being Alone

A relationship with a man was the highest priority in my life because I was afraid of being alone. Four years of widowhood and not understanding my relationship with God led me to make choices that took me out of God's will. My relationship with Christ had taken second place to the relationship that I had chosen to have with a man. Sigh

I am sad for the woman that replaced Christ with an Earthly man. An earthly man not chosen by Christ, but chosen out of fear will not bring peace, joy, or contentment. I know because I settled for someone who wasn't rooted and grounded in God.

My healing began when I actively began to pursue Christ as my first choice. A quote by Maya Angelou sums up my love for Jesus Christ.

“A woman's heart should be so hidden in God that a man has to seek Him just to find her.”

― Maya Angelou

My Love Affair with Jesus

My love affair with Jesus began by getting to know him better. I quit filling in empty time with the Bible and began arising an hour earlier to begin my day with my husband, actively seeking his words and applying them to my life. The Word filled my emptiness and made me see how much my Heavenly husband loves me.  My love grew as I became fully rooted and grounded in His love. Fearfulness of being alone left because I wasn't alone. He is my bridegroom and I am his bride. What a joyful, fulfilling marriage! My life is full, rich, and busy. 

My Hidden Heart 

Then, I gave my heavenly husband a gift - the gift of submission. These words left my lips one morning," Lord, I would like to have a husband, but if that is not your will for me, then that is fine with me."

My heart was hidden in God that day. Jesus wrapped his arms around me, hugged me, and told me what a wonderful wife I was. The Holy Spirit within me expanded to enfold me in happiness, peace, joy, and love. 

Please start your love affair with Christ today and hide your heart in God.  Tell Him that he is in charge of your heart. Imprint his scriptures upon your heart.